This is Loveless! The kid on the right is Ritzuka, and the guy on the left is Soubi.. =)
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
= LOVELESS =
Note from the author : This is one of my ultra-long posts.. so read if you've time only k? haha...
=P
I'm actually writing this post because its 12:13 AM in the morning, and I don't feel sleepy... so I feel like writing a bit to wring my time away, and give a myself a bit of excuse from studying Media Law...
Memories, the importance of it... I never had an exceptional memory, nor even a normal one since young...
Few people actually know this... but I have no recollection of anything I did before 5 years old...
A few vague shadows, I lost a large part of my life after an accident...
Haha. Sounds drama eh? My life is full of dramatic occurances... But my life before that only lies in photographs, in stories told to me by my parents, and of course, my brothers...
Nobody suspects (or suspected) a memory loss at that time coz being a well bred obedient kid, I just said yes to everything...
But whenever I try to remember, it only hits a few memories... such as a very very tall lego structure... and i think... some transformer toys...
I dunno what happened much in nursery or kindergarten... except that it was St. Matthew's Kindergarten of course...
haha... how I envy those that actually have good recollections of their childhood... wonder how its like...
Anywayz, the reason for this train of thought is thanks to a series of anime that I have completed watching. "Loveless".
Loveless
While its storyline is still not as strong as Gravitation, its still a touching show built in a fantasy world...
The story outline :
Main cast
- Aoyagi Ritzuka (21 years old)
- Agatsuma Soubi (16 years old)
- Hawatari Yuiko (16 years old)
- Yayoi-san (16 years old)
Actually there are two more, Hitome and Kadoi (also known as Kio), but the main story lies between these four characters, and the protaganists - Aoyagi Rizuka and Agatsuma Soubi...
The beginning of the show is very complex, and I was lost and kind of distracted, because it seems that Rizuka has a very complicated childhood and lost some kind of next-of-kin, and now comes along Soubi who claims that he "loves" him and he knows how his brother died...
Of course, Rizuka, who always loved his brother wanted to know exactly how he died, and decided to play this stranger's game... Soon, they were drawn into a world of magic and spell battles...
In this world, the way of magic is done in zodiac pairs... meaning, those that had the strongest connection to each other tend to find a magical bond that allows them to work magic and support each other in battle.
However, Soubi is Rizuka's brother's fighter! Why would he need Rizuka?
Apparantly, Soubi and his brother were the 2 top sorcerers in the magical realm. Like master and servant, Soubi served his brother unquestioningly, which was the characteristic of a fighter who lived to serve his 'sacrifice'.
After Rizuka's brother died, he needed a new sacrifice, and naturally, he would go to his brother who had the strongest bond...
Initially, he said "I love you", because he only needed it to link Rizuka to himself and chain his life to him. Such that when he would be dealt damage, instead of receiving it, Rizuka would.
Rizuka had no idea... Soubi wanted to be commanded again, just like his master did before... However, Rizuka didnt want it to be that way... He was the everything his brother was not...
He had compassion, he had forgiveness, the one difference that he had compared to his brother was a heart.
As was found out later in the series, Rizuka's brother and Soubi made such a good team because his brother was merciless and cold, while Soubi followed the instructions that were given to him to the letter.
For the first few parts, Rizuka only allowed Soubi to talk to him because he wanted to know how his brother died. However, it became evident that Soubi did not want to talk about it. By that time, Soubi began to appreciate how he was actually free and no longer like a zombie fighter... and he began to love Rizuka...
But a competition between two dark masters over how they can destroy Soubi and capture Rizuka threatened to destroy anything that could happen between them. Knowing that Rizuka will never survive a battle against their ultimate genetic team "Zero", he decided to go into battle, alone. Without a sacrifice, without a master...
His battle strength cut by 50%, his life cut by 50%, he only had a quarter of his power left... And he lost.
However, like all these love stories, Rizuka realized that he loved Soubi, and decided to tell him, and even in death-like situations, these statements seem to work miraculously and Soubi recovered.
Haha. So, what are the other 2 characters?
They're the ones that add life and flavour to the show. Yuiko (a girl) likes Rizuka, and has a big crush on him (because he's so cool). And Yayoi-san (a guy) likes Yuiko, and can't believe that a new kid can cause him to lose all hopes of becoming Yuiko's boyfriend...
The animation effects in the show is extremely beautiful, especially the spell-battles, and there are many touching scenes in the show that will warm hearts...
Quite recommended... I'd give it a 4.2 stars /5
oh yah.. the reason why Loveless initiated this train of thought is because Rizuka lost all his memories when he was 12 years old, so he keeps taking photographs and talks to a psychologist because he fears that he will lose them again...
- just like why I keep my blog...
Oooh.. and 1 more thing... The starting song is super nice... I couldn't get it out of my mind either... My next song on my blog will be Loveless - Tsuki no Curse.
hmm.. the songs that are on my blog are mostly low quality, as I don't want the songs to affect my bandwidth too much. And these really affets my japanese songs as most of the J-Rock songs are very VERY high fidelity music, and require much space... Compressing them can cause some strange effects...
Anywayz, I've finished watching all 12 episodes of Loveless already... fantastic =)
haha. Of course, if you noticed, like Gravitation, Earthian and Yami no Matsui, Loveless is a Shonen-ai. Meaning, a love story between 2 guys.
bleah. Don't blame me for not being mainstream... I think that Loveless would beat many anime's handsdown. And Gravitation has surpassed all.
wahaha... man. am I bias or wad...
*hugz*
*don't stress yourself out studying too much k? (haha.. even though I know you won't)*
*Love ya*
=P
I'm actually writing this post because its 12:13 AM in the morning, and I don't feel sleepy... so I feel like writing a bit to wring my time away, and give a myself a bit of excuse from studying Media Law...
Memories, the importance of it... I never had an exceptional memory, nor even a normal one since young...
Few people actually know this... but I have no recollection of anything I did before 5 years old...
A few vague shadows, I lost a large part of my life after an accident...
Haha. Sounds drama eh? My life is full of dramatic occurances... But my life before that only lies in photographs, in stories told to me by my parents, and of course, my brothers...
Nobody suspects (or suspected) a memory loss at that time coz being a well bred obedient kid, I just said yes to everything...
But whenever I try to remember, it only hits a few memories... such as a very very tall lego structure... and i think... some transformer toys...
I dunno what happened much in nursery or kindergarten... except that it was St. Matthew's Kindergarten of course...
haha... how I envy those that actually have good recollections of their childhood... wonder how its like...
Anywayz, the reason for this train of thought is thanks to a series of anime that I have completed watching. "Loveless".
Loveless
While its storyline is still not as strong as Gravitation, its still a touching show built in a fantasy world...
The story outline :
Main cast
- Aoyagi Ritzuka (21 years old)
- Agatsuma Soubi (16 years old)
- Hawatari Yuiko (16 years old)
- Yayoi-san (16 years old)
Actually there are two more, Hitome and Kadoi (also known as Kio), but the main story lies between these four characters, and the protaganists - Aoyagi Rizuka and Agatsuma Soubi...
The beginning of the show is very complex, and I was lost and kind of distracted, because it seems that Rizuka has a very complicated childhood and lost some kind of next-of-kin, and now comes along Soubi who claims that he "loves" him and he knows how his brother died...
Of course, Rizuka, who always loved his brother wanted to know exactly how he died, and decided to play this stranger's game... Soon, they were drawn into a world of magic and spell battles...
In this world, the way of magic is done in zodiac pairs... meaning, those that had the strongest connection to each other tend to find a magical bond that allows them to work magic and support each other in battle.
However, Soubi is Rizuka's brother's fighter! Why would he need Rizuka?
Apparantly, Soubi and his brother were the 2 top sorcerers in the magical realm. Like master and servant, Soubi served his brother unquestioningly, which was the characteristic of a fighter who lived to serve his 'sacrifice'.
After Rizuka's brother died, he needed a new sacrifice, and naturally, he would go to his brother who had the strongest bond...
Initially, he said "I love you", because he only needed it to link Rizuka to himself and chain his life to him. Such that when he would be dealt damage, instead of receiving it, Rizuka would.
Rizuka had no idea... Soubi wanted to be commanded again, just like his master did before... However, Rizuka didnt want it to be that way... He was the everything his brother was not...
He had compassion, he had forgiveness, the one difference that he had compared to his brother was a heart.
As was found out later in the series, Rizuka's brother and Soubi made such a good team because his brother was merciless and cold, while Soubi followed the instructions that were given to him to the letter.
For the first few parts, Rizuka only allowed Soubi to talk to him because he wanted to know how his brother died. However, it became evident that Soubi did not want to talk about it. By that time, Soubi began to appreciate how he was actually free and no longer like a zombie fighter... and he began to love Rizuka...
But a competition between two dark masters over how they can destroy Soubi and capture Rizuka threatened to destroy anything that could happen between them. Knowing that Rizuka will never survive a battle against their ultimate genetic team "Zero", he decided to go into battle, alone. Without a sacrifice, without a master...
His battle strength cut by 50%, his life cut by 50%, he only had a quarter of his power left... And he lost.
However, like all these love stories, Rizuka realized that he loved Soubi, and decided to tell him, and even in death-like situations, these statements seem to work miraculously and Soubi recovered.
Haha. So, what are the other 2 characters?
They're the ones that add life and flavour to the show. Yuiko (a girl) likes Rizuka, and has a big crush on him (because he's so cool). And Yayoi-san (a guy) likes Yuiko, and can't believe that a new kid can cause him to lose all hopes of becoming Yuiko's boyfriend...
The animation effects in the show is extremely beautiful, especially the spell-battles, and there are many touching scenes in the show that will warm hearts...
Quite recommended... I'd give it a 4.2 stars /5
oh yah.. the reason why Loveless initiated this train of thought is because Rizuka lost all his memories when he was 12 years old, so he keeps taking photographs and talks to a psychologist because he fears that he will lose them again...
- just like why I keep my blog...
Oooh.. and 1 more thing... The starting song is super nice... I couldn't get it out of my mind either... My next song on my blog will be Loveless - Tsuki no Curse.
hmm.. the songs that are on my blog are mostly low quality, as I don't want the songs to affect my bandwidth too much. And these really affets my japanese songs as most of the J-Rock songs are very VERY high fidelity music, and require much space... Compressing them can cause some strange effects...
Anywayz, I've finished watching all 12 episodes of Loveless already... fantastic =)
haha. Of course, if you noticed, like Gravitation, Earthian and Yami no Matsui, Loveless is a Shonen-ai. Meaning, a love story between 2 guys.
bleah. Don't blame me for not being mainstream... I think that Loveless would beat many anime's handsdown. And Gravitation has surpassed all.
wahaha... man. am I bias or wad...
*hugz*
*don't stress yourself out studying too much k? (haha.. even though I know you won't)*
*Love ya*
Monday, February 27, 2006
Exam Blues
PRMP IS OVER!! PRMP IS OVER!!
AM AND PRMP IS OVER!!! *sings*
haha... two of the paper that I am most woried for is gone. And there is only one left.
ONE LEFT.
Media Law.
Media Law AND Ethics...
muahaha.. *laughs insanely*
I was reading through my personal diary again... I realized that I have came a long way in my thinking process over the years...
"arrgh... I hate the piano! It is so irritating... Practice practice practice! Its just playing the same chords over and over again! When am I ever going to be able to play a song properly? Exam in 8 days time. I think I should quit... That'll make her really angry. I'm already grade 6 anyway. She's getting on my nerve."
- Excerpt taken from a journal in Sec 1
haha.. I've gotta thank her anywayz.. for forcing me to practice...
I was never one to like examinations...
AM AND PRMP IS OVER!!! *sings*
haha... two of the paper that I am most woried for is gone. And there is only one left.
ONE LEFT.
Media Law.
Media Law AND Ethics...
muahaha.. *laughs insanely*
I was reading through my personal diary again... I realized that I have came a long way in my thinking process over the years...
"arrgh... I hate the piano! It is so irritating... Practice practice practice! Its just playing the same chords over and over again! When am I ever going to be able to play a song properly? Exam in 8 days time. I think I should quit... That'll make her really angry. I'm already grade 6 anyway. She's getting on my nerve."
- Excerpt taken from a journal in Sec 1
haha.. I've gotta thank her anywayz.. for forcing me to practice...
I was never one to like examinations...
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Saturday, February 25, 2006
A Hurtful Statement
"I hate those blogs that are self-piteous in nature"...
This is a very direct and strong statement... and it tugged at me when I read that comment...
The people who agreed and said that are quite close to me, friends - definately, but such insensitivity still doesn't agree with me...
... that is because my blog has been catagarised as such before...
A blog, to me, is a link. A sanctuary to write out opinions, feelings, emotions and experiences for self-reflection as well as to share with those who care about you.
(that excludes those who blog for publicity purposes -_-" guess who)
When a person is sad, he or she will naturally express whatever they are feeling on their blog. If a person is sad for a long period of time, they will express sadness for a long period of time on their blog. It is not surprising.
During the periods of my depression, my blog was a eyesore (to some people I guess) of whining and moaning.
Was it because I was wallowing in self-pity? No.
Was it because my blog was self-piteous in nature? No.
Was it becasue I was trying to seek attention? Maybe. But still it wasn't on my mind at that time.
It all boils down to the fact that each human is different and the life of some people are just inflicted with greater sadness then other people...
It is not self-pity...
Why do people do sharing? Why did God command us to share our feelings, thoughts and needs with one another?
Because its an expression of care, love and concern for one another...
Knowing whatever a person is going through, when he or she is sharing with you. Would you brand him or her as "self-piteous"?
Likewise, when you read another person's blog, we are not there as a spiteful commentators, but as a caring friend and who wish to know what the people you love are going through...
Hope you guys will be more sensitive to the bloggers...
They may actually be going through some tough times and you all may be laughing at their misery.
Blogging is something very personal, close to the heart, yet open to the world
Happiness is meant to tell you that the person sharing with you wants you to be happy too because they want to share it with you.
Likewise, sadness and loneliness is meant to tell you that the person sharing it with you wants you to know that he or she is feeling down and maybe you're the one that can cheer him or her up.
Will you pick the person up today?
*hugz*
*rub rub rub rub* =D
This is a very direct and strong statement... and it tugged at me when I read that comment...
The people who agreed and said that are quite close to me, friends - definately, but such insensitivity still doesn't agree with me...
... that is because my blog has been catagarised as such before...
A blog, to me, is a link. A sanctuary to write out opinions, feelings, emotions and experiences for self-reflection as well as to share with those who care about you.
(that excludes those who blog for publicity purposes -_-" guess who)
When a person is sad, he or she will naturally express whatever they are feeling on their blog. If a person is sad for a long period of time, they will express sadness for a long period of time on their blog. It is not surprising.
During the periods of my depression, my blog was a eyesore (to some people I guess) of whining and moaning.
Was it because I was wallowing in self-pity? No.
Was it because my blog was self-piteous in nature? No.
Was it becasue I was trying to seek attention? Maybe. But still it wasn't on my mind at that time.
It all boils down to the fact that each human is different and the life of some people are just inflicted with greater sadness then other people...
It is not self-pity...
Why do people do sharing? Why did God command us to share our feelings, thoughts and needs with one another?
Because its an expression of care, love and concern for one another...
Knowing whatever a person is going through, when he or she is sharing with you. Would you brand him or her as "self-piteous"?
Likewise, when you read another person's blog, we are not there as a spiteful commentators, but as a caring friend and who wish to know what the people you love are going through...
Hope you guys will be more sensitive to the bloggers...
They may actually be going through some tough times and you all may be laughing at their misery.
Blogging is something very personal, close to the heart, yet open to the world
Happiness is meant to tell you that the person sharing with you wants you to be happy too because they want to share it with you.
Likewise, sadness and loneliness is meant to tell you that the person sharing it with you wants you to know that he or she is feeling down and maybe you're the one that can cheer him or her up.
Will you pick the person up today?
*hugz*
*rub rub rub rub* =D
Thursday, February 23, 2006
MY COMPUTER HAS A VIRUS??!!
ahh!
I'm so hopping mad... arrgh.. my computer is infected with a virus!! What the hell! My computer?...
BAKA!!! Considering my security measures, it must be an insider who has allowed the virus to be installed!
Grr... stupid Nicholas...
NOW I'm being flooded with those stupid pornography advertisement every 5 minutes or so. AND THEY ARE STRAIGHT PORN!! WTH!!
.. this is so irritating... x_X
#$&@#*$@#&$#)@*$
To Say Goodbye
After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open,
And learn to build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain
For plans, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine
Burns if you get too much,
So, you plant your own garden and
Decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers
And you learn that you really can endure.......
That you are really strong,
And you really do have worth,
And you learn and learn
With every goodbye
You learn
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open,
And learn to build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain
For plans, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine
Burns if you get too much,
So, you plant your own garden and
Decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers
And you learn that you really can endure.......
That you are really strong,
And you really do have worth,
And you learn and learn
With every goodbye
You learn
- to Xiawei Mei Mei
its time to move on....
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
wahaha... that totals up my hard disk space to 40+80+80+120 = 320GB of hard disk space!! muahahaha!! *laughs insanely*... and on top of that, an additional 1GB of DDR2RAM which will increase my computer's performance by leaps and bounds! wahahahaha!! ... sigh... now all I need is a 10 mbps modem and a 1GB video card to go with it and it'll be perfect... =P
Wierd Stuffs About Andrew
I'm quite a wierd person.
Ok.
I am a wierd person, but I just found out some wierder stuffs about myself...
behold.
1) I don't watch TV - In fact, I quite hate that thing... Other then some shows that capture my attention for a few minutes, I don't watch TV...
well, of course.. unless its Pokemon, or Digimon or maybe some interesting cartoons.... =D
I especially hate most variety shows... AND "Days of our Lives".. I can't believe anybody can WATCH that thing..
2) I don't listen to the Radio - I have so much music, that I find it pointless to turn on the radio to listen at times... (re: I think I have about 800+ Music CDs in my house)
moreover, I listen mostly to Christian songs only (and recently Gravitation), which most definately are not mainstream music... so I won't tune on to any stations
3) I like to Read - hmm.. yes. I like reading. Can you believe it? Most people my age hate reading.
however, I hate books that go under the classification "Mystery", "Thriller" or "Biography". I prefer books that will allow me to use my imagination.
yupz... so thats a few more items that I can add to "Andrew's Wierd List"...
I'm not your everyday guy after all.... =P
...
sigh.. I'm bored...
I changed my Gravitation music... nice right?
Goes to show that they don't just compose tech/rock all the time...
oh! and I just took a peek at XiaXue's blog after a period of 120+ days of abstinance, and guess wad..
She's still as perverted and bitchy as ever...
Some girls like to think that guys are always dirty-minded and perverted... but girls like Xiaxue makes you wonder if girls are the same too..
but after much consideration, I think that everybody is wierdly perverted in some ways, but our emtional quotion (EQ), stops us in our tracks.
oh yah! Have you ever wondered if I watched porn?
hmm...
duh. I've been using the internet since god knows when... and the spam that I get everytime I access a website to get game cracks/keygens or emulators, it somehow teleports me to some wierd website with women-deprecating pictures...
well...
as you all know, I don't even blink and eyelid and press the [X] on the top right corner of the screen. and a million other of the same website appears...
finally, *angel voices* SPYWARE DESTROYERS!.. became available.. and I almost wet my pants...
yaay.
no more pictures of hidious women trying to turn straight men horny.
of coz it had no effect on me. at all.
I wonder why.
fine... i think i'm starting to ramble.. this is what happen if you spend an afternoon studying creative briefs (briefs?... swimming trunks? leopard skin underwear?)... and FCB grids..
yupz..
so Andrew has leaked 4 secrets on his blog...
wahahahaha... *puke*
Ok.
I am a wierd person, but I just found out some wierder stuffs about myself...
behold.
1) I don't watch TV - In fact, I quite hate that thing... Other then some shows that capture my attention for a few minutes, I don't watch TV...
well, of course.. unless its Pokemon, or Digimon or maybe some interesting cartoons.... =D
I especially hate most variety shows... AND "Days of our Lives".. I can't believe anybody can WATCH that thing..
2) I don't listen to the Radio - I have so much music, that I find it pointless to turn on the radio to listen at times... (re: I think I have about 800+ Music CDs in my house)
moreover, I listen mostly to Christian songs only (and recently Gravitation), which most definately are not mainstream music... so I won't tune on to any stations
3) I like to Read - hmm.. yes. I like reading. Can you believe it? Most people my age hate reading.
however, I hate books that go under the classification "Mystery", "Thriller" or "Biography". I prefer books that will allow me to use my imagination.
yupz... so thats a few more items that I can add to "Andrew's Wierd List"...
I'm not your everyday guy after all.... =P
...
sigh.. I'm bored...
I changed my Gravitation music... nice right?
Goes to show that they don't just compose tech/rock all the time...
oh! and I just took a peek at XiaXue's blog after a period of 120+ days of abstinance, and guess wad..
She's still as perverted and bitchy as ever...
Some girls like to think that guys are always dirty-minded and perverted... but girls like Xiaxue makes you wonder if girls are the same too..
but after much consideration, I think that everybody is wierdly perverted in some ways, but our emtional quotion (EQ), stops us in our tracks.
oh yah! Have you ever wondered if I watched porn?
hmm...
duh. I've been using the internet since god knows when... and the spam that I get everytime I access a website to get game cracks/keygens or emulators, it somehow teleports me to some wierd website with women-deprecating pictures...
well...
as you all know, I don't even blink and eyelid and press the [X] on the top right corner of the screen. and a million other of the same website appears...
finally, *angel voices* SPYWARE DESTROYERS!.. became available.. and I almost wet my pants...
yaay.
no more pictures of hidious women trying to turn straight men horny.
of coz it had no effect on me. at all.
I wonder why.
fine... i think i'm starting to ramble.. this is what happen if you spend an afternoon studying creative briefs (briefs?... swimming trunks? leopard skin underwear?)... and FCB grids..
yupz..
so Andrew has leaked 4 secrets on his blog...
wahahahaha... *puke*
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Kumagoro Beam!!
A number of people have been asking me what is "Kumagoro Beam" in my nick. Well then, this is the Kumagoro Beam sequence in Gravitation for your enjoyment.
Kumagoro Beam is a "power" that childlike Ryuchi Sakama (the lead singer of "Nittle Grasper"), uses to ask people to "awaken" to reality...
haha.. in this case, Shuichi.. coz he's so lovestruck by Yuki Eiri...
In any case, I needed a Kumagoro Beam blast on me, as I only started studying like this morning... I wonder if I would even be able to continue studying...
anywayz, my guess is that this blog would be updated even more frequently for these weeks as I have lost my interest in alot of games that used to hold my enjoyment...
haha =)
*miss ya*
Kumagoro Beam is a "power" that childlike Ryuchi Sakama (the lead singer of "Nittle Grasper"), uses to ask people to "awaken" to reality...
haha.. in this case, Shuichi.. coz he's so lovestruck by Yuki Eiri...
In any case, I needed a Kumagoro Beam blast on me, as I only started studying like this morning... I wonder if I would even be able to continue studying...
anywayz, my guess is that this blog would be updated even more frequently for these weeks as I have lost my interest in alot of games that used to hold my enjoyment...
haha =)
*miss ya*
Monday, February 20, 2006
The Greatest Pain
The greatest pain in life is not to die, but to be ignored.
To lose the person you love so much to another who doesn't care at all.
To have someone you care about so much throw a party and not tell you about it.
When your favorite person on earth neglects to invite you to his graduation.
To have people think that you don't care.
The greatest pain in life, is not to die, but to be forgotten.
To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi".
When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.
For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.
When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.
Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other, and make time for those who are in need?
Each of us has a part to playing this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored... forgotten...as you have done to others.
To lose the person you love so much to another who doesn't care at all.
To have someone you care about so much throw a party and not tell you about it.
When your favorite person on earth neglects to invite you to his graduation.
To have people think that you don't care.
The greatest pain in life, is not to die, but to be forgotten.
To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi".
When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.
For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.
When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.
Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other, and make time for those who are in need?
Each of us has a part to playing this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored... forgotten...as you have done to others.
- Author Unknown
Holiday Foresights
Holidays are round the corner!
And though I know that this is not the appropriate time to think about it, I think I've got a list of things I wanna do for this holiday... hmm...
1) Go out for a whole day with Dominic at least once
2) Improve and event new synthesizer techniques
3) Complete at least 40% of my Independent Study Project
4) Go jamming with the ASH
5) Sing my heart out at a KTV at least once
6) Become a super pro at o2Jam [a computer game]
7) Buy at least 5 more sets of clothes
8) Change my hairstyle and color
9) Complete my upper body training to my satisfaction
10) Do a good project for the video club
yupz. aint that difficult, come to think of it... but I might procrastinate doing 3 and 8, knowing the effort and risks involved...
oh yah! as usual, like every holiday...
I PLAN TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD!!!
mwahaha... with a hidden agenda that I won't tell of course
*grins*
And though I know that this is not the appropriate time to think about it, I think I've got a list of things I wanna do for this holiday... hmm...
1) Go out for a whole day with Dominic at least once
2) Improve and event new synthesizer techniques
3) Complete at least 40% of my Independent Study Project
4) Go jamming with the ASH
5) Sing my heart out at a KTV at least once
6) Become a super pro at o2Jam [a computer game]
7) Buy at least 5 more sets of clothes
8) Change my hairstyle and color
9) Complete my upper body training to my satisfaction
10) Do a good project for the video club
yupz. aint that difficult, come to think of it... but I might procrastinate doing 3 and 8, knowing the effort and risks involved...
oh yah! as usual, like every holiday...
I PLAN TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD!!!
mwahaha... with a hidden agenda that I won't tell of course
*grins*
Deep Thoughts
Ha... I've just watched finish Gravitation for like the 5th time...
I just love the show...
but above all the heart warming love that the show is about, a phrase that the lead guitarist, Hiro Nanake said striked a chord in me...
"Love, is not about talents, its not about whether you are the first or you are the last. Unlike what the world wants of you, love is different. Because, simply put, love isn't of the world."
Yeah, some people may ask. How on earth can there be love if there weren't any attraction in the first place?
True, like what Shuichi said, "I hope that mine (the person I will like) can be a crush, then love."
We all are attracted to each other by stuff that we like about each other. But unlike love, this brittle, volatile magnetism warrents only a period of time when we get tired of each other, or we do not have any use for the other person anymore.
Love. In essence, is unconditional - without the need for the other party to fufill requirements or criterias.
Do I love Dominic?
Yes.
The answer is yes. Be it now, be it the future, no matter how many millions of people may ask that question, it is still yes.
I love his hugs,
I love his smiles,
I love his continuous innocent talk,
I love his efforts to try and get me to reply when I'm all glum and depressed,
... but these are all nonconsequential to my love for him....
yeah, I admit that I was attracted to him because of all these stuffs, but that is not enough to make me cry when I miss him so much.
That is not enough for me to leave a space in my prayer, everday. Hoping that God will watch over him and keep him safe.
...
what am i saying. Love can't be explained in a mere number of paragraphs of thought.
I love him. And besides God, few other stuffs are more important.
- to a counselor
*sobz*
I just love the show...
but above all the heart warming love that the show is about, a phrase that the lead guitarist, Hiro Nanake said striked a chord in me...
"Love, is not about talents, its not about whether you are the first or you are the last. Unlike what the world wants of you, love is different. Because, simply put, love isn't of the world."
Yeah, some people may ask. How on earth can there be love if there weren't any attraction in the first place?
True, like what Shuichi said, "I hope that mine (the person I will like) can be a crush, then love."
We all are attracted to each other by stuff that we like about each other. But unlike love, this brittle, volatile magnetism warrents only a period of time when we get tired of each other, or we do not have any use for the other person anymore.
Love. In essence, is unconditional - without the need for the other party to fufill requirements or criterias.
Do I love Dominic?
Yes.
The answer is yes. Be it now, be it the future, no matter how many millions of people may ask that question, it is still yes.
I love his hugs,
I love his smiles,
I love his continuous innocent talk,
I love his efforts to try and get me to reply when I'm all glum and depressed,
... but these are all nonconsequential to my love for him....
yeah, I admit that I was attracted to him because of all these stuffs, but that is not enough to make me cry when I miss him so much.
That is not enough for me to leave a space in my prayer, everday. Hoping that God will watch over him and keep him safe.
...
what am i saying. Love can't be explained in a mere number of paragraphs of thought.
I love him. And besides God, few other stuffs are more important.
- to a counselor
*sobz*
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Friday, February 17, 2006
wormy the bad bad worm.
My computer is back.
hmm...
Apparantly, according to the person who fixed my computer, my system was infected with a worm.
Yes. a WOORRRMMM *makes a scary sound*
hmm... i never guessed that worms could cause harm to hardware... I always believed that viruses and worms preferred software...
but apparantly, this worm managed to infiltrate my very "secure" system and overload my motherboard, thus causing my power supply to burn out and make me very unhappy.
darn this worm.
wormmy wormmy worm..
Oh. I havn't started studying for AM yet.
I think I'm dead.
haha.
There is a person laughing madly in one of the clubs at my house downstairs... I shall immerse myself in his mirth.
bye bye!
*love ya dear*
*squigglez* =)
hmm...
Apparantly, according to the person who fixed my computer, my system was infected with a worm.
Yes. a WOORRRMMM *makes a scary sound*
hmm... i never guessed that worms could cause harm to hardware... I always believed that viruses and worms preferred software...
but apparantly, this worm managed to infiltrate my very "secure" system and overload my motherboard, thus causing my power supply to burn out and make me very unhappy.
darn this worm.
wormmy wormmy worm..
Oh. I havn't started studying for AM yet.
I think I'm dead.
haha.
There is a person laughing madly in one of the clubs at my house downstairs... I shall immerse myself in his mirth.
bye bye!
*love ya dear*
*squigglez* =)
Thursday, February 16, 2006
unbreak YOUR heart.
EOF, MPP, TREDP, CRM is down.
AM, PRMP and MLE still exists.
hmm... I must keep reminding myself not to let my guard down.....
....
I think recently, I've shown my ultra-serious side to a few people...
I've rarely ever done that before, but I think that it had to be done...
cruel as it may sound...
In our lives, people come and people go...
The few that remain are the ones that deserved more....
why lament over that which cannot be recovered?
Beneath my usual placid, dumb, materialistic self, lies an alter-ego. One that has faced years and years of scarring.
Though I may not carry the wisdom that comes with age, I do carry the experiences that follow it...
I doubt there are many of my age who has experienced the extent of the world as much as me.
Call me boastful. But I still do not believe.
Why have I placed such a "blind", "trusting" faith in God?
The answer is simple -
God is a being that embodies love.
Love transcends all.
Love never fails.
Love is.... there are too many words to describe love...
thus, no matter what, I know that should I fall, His hand is there to comfort me...
because, He is The Love, above love.
shouldn't you trust Him too?
I'm not sorry for the things I said, because it had to be said; to wake you up from the nightmare that you are in, to the comfort of a new day...
I will always be your kor. I won't break the promise...
But don't break my heart... by refusing to let yours heal...
Won't you give God back your heart?
Come to the Father,
Though your gift is small...
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all...
The power of the word,
Ther power of His blood...
Everything was done,
So you would come
I emphasise "so you would come", because in every facet of our lives, God carves us and molds us into who we must be.... and there is a purpose for everything....
trust God in His Will...
A will that will never be wrong,
A will that will always be strong...
Trust me.
I wil make you recover. No matter what it will cost.
AM, PRMP and MLE still exists.
hmm... I must keep reminding myself not to let my guard down.....
....
I think recently, I've shown my ultra-serious side to a few people...
I've rarely ever done that before, but I think that it had to be done...
cruel as it may sound...
In our lives, people come and people go...
The few that remain are the ones that deserved more....
why lament over that which cannot be recovered?
Beneath my usual placid, dumb, materialistic self, lies an alter-ego. One that has faced years and years of scarring.
Though I may not carry the wisdom that comes with age, I do carry the experiences that follow it...
I doubt there are many of my age who has experienced the extent of the world as much as me.
Call me boastful. But I still do not believe.
Why have I placed such a "blind", "trusting" faith in God?
The answer is simple -
God is a being that embodies love.
Love transcends all.
Love never fails.
Love is.... there are too many words to describe love...
thus, no matter what, I know that should I fall, His hand is there to comfort me...
because, He is The Love, above love.
shouldn't you trust Him too?
I'm not sorry for the things I said, because it had to be said; to wake you up from the nightmare that you are in, to the comfort of a new day...
I will always be your kor. I won't break the promise...
But don't break my heart... by refusing to let yours heal...
Won't you give God back your heart?
Come to the Father,
Though your gift is small...
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all...
The power of the word,
Ther power of His blood...
Everything was done,
So you would come
I emphasise "so you would come", because in every facet of our lives, God carves us and molds us into who we must be.... and there is a purpose for everything....
trust God in His Will...
A will that will never be wrong,
A will that will always be strong...
Trust me.
I wil make you recover. No matter what it will cost.
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Play my Valentine
sorry dear..
valentine's day was somewhat toned down...
I just couldn't take my mind of something that happened to my friend...
Frankly, in my opinion, I've witnessed over the span of 24 hours, one of the most cruel way that a person can dump another person...
maybe he just wasn't thinking. that :
1) It would be Valentine's Day in less then 1 hour
2) It is right smack in the middle of her examination period
3) He used indirect communication - SMS
4) He didnt make any proper communication for so many days.
grr....
sigh.. but I havn't heard his side of the story yet... But I just dunno what to think...
anywayz...
MY COMPUTER IS CURRENTLY IN UNSTABLE CONDITION.
DONT CONTACT ME ON MSN.
CONTACT ME ON THE PHONE.
lol... he made for me a super sweet, super tasty chocolate brownie yesterday...
and he bought for me a book...
haha.. he knows that I love reading alot... and that I've never read Dan Brown's Digital Fortress before, so he bought for me that book.... after disappearing for 15 mins during dinner...
haha
yum... i've eaten all the brownies already... haha... i think i'm going to grow fat too..
sigh... sorry I was so moody yesterday... i think i was very childish not to think of your feelings.
I love you alot...
More then you can imagine..... x 100,000,000 times
*hugglez*
valentine's day was somewhat toned down...
I just couldn't take my mind of something that happened to my friend...
Frankly, in my opinion, I've witnessed over the span of 24 hours, one of the most cruel way that a person can dump another person...
maybe he just wasn't thinking. that :
1) It would be Valentine's Day in less then 1 hour
2) It is right smack in the middle of her examination period
3) He used indirect communication - SMS
4) He didnt make any proper communication for so many days.
grr....
sigh.. but I havn't heard his side of the story yet... But I just dunno what to think...
anywayz...
MY COMPUTER IS CURRENTLY IN UNSTABLE CONDITION.
DONT CONTACT ME ON MSN.
CONTACT ME ON THE PHONE.
lol... he made for me a super sweet, super tasty chocolate brownie yesterday...
and he bought for me a book...
haha.. he knows that I love reading alot... and that I've never read Dan Brown's Digital Fortress before, so he bought for me that book.... after disappearing for 15 mins during dinner...
haha
yum... i've eaten all the brownies already... haha... i think i'm going to grow fat too..
sigh... sorry I was so moody yesterday... i think i was very childish not to think of your feelings.
I love you alot...
More then you can imagine..... x 100,000,000 times
*hugglez*
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Storm Clouds May Gather, Stars May Collide.... but.
I'll love you, until my dying day...
Today is valentine's day.
A day for love. A day to treasure....
Though dark clouds gather in my mind... the sun still shines above all these...
sigh... miss him so much....
XW mei... dont think so much le ok... Start a new day, a new chapter in your life, erasing memories that hurt and keeping those that are worth it close to your heart...
You've got to be stronger then ever before now...
sakenomo itsumane
i won't break this promise, not now, not ever...
v. day v. day v. day...
love is in the air!
I just can't wait till this darn MPP thing is over.... =)
Today is valentine's day.
A day for love. A day to treasure....
Though dark clouds gather in my mind... the sun still shines above all these...
sigh... miss him so much....
XW mei... dont think so much le ok... Start a new day, a new chapter in your life, erasing memories that hurt and keeping those that are worth it close to your heart...
You've got to be stronger then ever before now...
sakenomo itsumane
i won't break this promise, not now, not ever...
v. day v. day v. day...
love is in the air!
I just can't wait till this darn MPP thing is over.... =)
Saturday, February 11, 2006
Love.
Complicated... isn't it?
Love is a mystery... so difficult to comprehend, yet so simple in its very essence...
One moment it can be as beautiful as a rainbow after a storm, and yet be like darkness, ready to sweep you over the edge of nothingness...
I just realized that I cry so much more easily nowadays...
Nope, its not the amount of animes that I'm watching... but... I guess now is one of my more volatile mood swings...
For those that talked to me recently, you'd find that I'm so much more talketive and happy then usual, yet when I'm alone... I lose myself...
I wish I have more time to spend with him.... Schools, studies, commitments are tearing us further and further away from each other.... my open hands can only grasp so much...
He's worried that he might affect my results, as he knows that I place a large emphasis on my studies....
But there are times when I just look at my notes and tears just blurs everything.... Paranoia engulfs every inch of my body... the pessimistic drive in me takes over and forces me to the verge of depression again...
whats the use of studying when you can't absorb anything?....
I miss him..... alot...
arrgh... i hate these mood swings... it just has to come at all the wrong times...
Complicated... isn't it?
Love is a mystery... so difficult to comprehend, yet so simple in its very essence...
One moment it can be as beautiful as a rainbow after a storm, and yet be like darkness, ready to sweep you over the edge of nothingness...
I just realized that I cry so much more easily nowadays...
Nope, its not the amount of animes that I'm watching... but... I guess now is one of my more volatile mood swings...
For those that talked to me recently, you'd find that I'm so much more talketive and happy then usual, yet when I'm alone... I lose myself...
I wish I have more time to spend with him.... Schools, studies, commitments are tearing us further and further away from each other.... my open hands can only grasp so much...
He's worried that he might affect my results, as he knows that I place a large emphasis on my studies....
But there are times when I just look at my notes and tears just blurs everything.... Paranoia engulfs every inch of my body... the pessimistic drive in me takes over and forces me to the verge of depression again...
whats the use of studying when you can't absorb anything?....
I miss him..... alot...
arrgh... i hate these mood swings... it just has to come at all the wrong times...
Friday, February 10, 2006
Day 6 : Still Equally Crazy Over Gravitation
Haha! Guess wad! I just made a stunning discovery today!
I realized why I looove the name Yuki so much!
Apart from the fact that Yuki is Shuichi's boyfriend, Yuki is also the name of Kyo's girlfriend!
Haha... I took the online persona as Kyo last time.. maybe its a undermasked instinct of mine to like Yuki!
=P
Gravitation Gravitation Gravitation!!!!
yeeaahh!! by far one of the best animes that I have watched
5 Stars 5 Stars!
LOL
hey peepz, for those that actually wanted me to help them to obtain people from Victoria Secondary to come to the event, really sorry though, I don't think I can help you all anymore... coz my bro has already asked the principle to provide 8 people already...
i doubt that i would be able to convince him to provide anymore already...
sigh...
on a lighter note,
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
(x 100)
three cheers for no school!
hmm.. I really need a break from this very boring semester... its terrible...
haiz...
anywayz, I woke up this morning to Ms Nga's message on my handphone, (like Cheryl and the others), and I scrutinized the message which read something like :
"Your request for ISP has been approved, Ms. Claire Ng will be your personal tutor for this project."
I stared at it blankly for awhile... and I great wave of disappointment swept me over.......
Though Ms. Claire Ng is a good teacher, I... kinda expected Ms Kwa to council me on this blogging project...
It is going to be hard for me to start building relationships all over with a lecturer whom I have never been taught under nor even communicate with....
help help help!
Cheryl gave a pretty good opinion on Ms. Claire, but..... I.. reserve my expectations...
I do not expect a lecturer to be nice to me, personally, I prefer a lecturer that is effective and efficient rather then a lecturer who gives views to tickle the ears of their students...
still... I feel rejected...
I guess Ms. Kwa doesnt think I'm good enough to be her student.....
or maybe because I disappointed her too deeply in the video club project....
baka baka baka!
watashi no baka!!
i've disappointed too many people...
my life leaves a trail of disappointments behind...
but nvm... I'll pick up my pieces and go on.... I understand that, one day, if God grants me success, it'll be a glorious one for Him, because I'm not just a failure, I'm a big BIG failure...
and if He picks me up, won't that be a sight to see =)
my. faith. will. not. be. shaken.
EoF is coming up next, and I just look blankly at my notes... I have hardly any clue whats going on... but I'll still study anywayz...
4 more days to valentine's day!
I can't wait I can't wait!!!
*hugzzzz*!!
I realized why I looove the name Yuki so much!
Apart from the fact that Yuki is Shuichi's boyfriend, Yuki is also the name of Kyo's girlfriend!
Haha... I took the online persona as Kyo last time.. maybe its a undermasked instinct of mine to like Yuki!
=P
Gravitation Gravitation Gravitation!!!!
yeeaahh!! by far one of the best animes that I have watched
5 Stars 5 Stars!
LOL
hey peepz, for those that actually wanted me to help them to obtain people from Victoria Secondary to come to the event, really sorry though, I don't think I can help you all anymore... coz my bro has already asked the principle to provide 8 people already...
i doubt that i would be able to convince him to provide anymore already...
sigh...
on a lighter note,
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!
(x 100)
three cheers for no school!
hmm.. I really need a break from this very boring semester... its terrible...
haiz...
anywayz, I woke up this morning to Ms Nga's message on my handphone, (like Cheryl and the others), and I scrutinized the message which read something like :
"Your request for ISP has been approved, Ms. Claire Ng will be your personal tutor for this project."
I stared at it blankly for awhile... and I great wave of disappointment swept me over.......
Though Ms. Claire Ng is a good teacher, I... kinda expected Ms Kwa to council me on this blogging project...
It is going to be hard for me to start building relationships all over with a lecturer whom I have never been taught under nor even communicate with....
help help help!
Cheryl gave a pretty good opinion on Ms. Claire, but..... I.. reserve my expectations...
I do not expect a lecturer to be nice to me, personally, I prefer a lecturer that is effective and efficient rather then a lecturer who gives views to tickle the ears of their students...
still... I feel rejected...
I guess Ms. Kwa doesnt think I'm good enough to be her student.....
or maybe because I disappointed her too deeply in the video club project....
baka baka baka!
watashi no baka!!
i've disappointed too many people...
my life leaves a trail of disappointments behind...
but nvm... I'll pick up my pieces and go on.... I understand that, one day, if God grants me success, it'll be a glorious one for Him, because I'm not just a failure, I'm a big BIG failure...
and if He picks me up, won't that be a sight to see =)
my. faith. will. not. be. shaken.
EoF is coming up next, and I just look blankly at my notes... I have hardly any clue whats going on... but I'll still study anywayz...
4 more days to valentine's day!
I can't wait I can't wait!!!
*hugzzzz*!!
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Day 5 : Still Crazy About Gravitation
Bleah! 5 days runnning, and I'm still crazy over GRAVITATION and it ain't simmering!
haha... Few things has ever gotten me so hyper before...
If only Gravitation stuffs were sold in Singapore, I think my bed, wardrobe, bag.. everything will be full of Gravi stuffs!
I'm even starting to act Japanese...
Konnichiwa!
Lol.. I think this is hilarious...
anywayz, GOOD LUCK TO ALL YOU PEEPZ GETTING O LEVEL RESULTS!!!!
*SCREAMS*
hee... i know how stress you feel.. I couldn't sleep the whole night before I got my O level results too...
now.... *cracks knuckles*
I'm going to learn how to use CUBase, an advance creation and synthesizing software... wish me luck! My system is finally up and running to use it!
k.
you may be wondering why this post is so stress free.. thats coz CRM IS OVER!!! CRM IS OVER!!!
YAAY!!
and in the span of 6 more days, MPP, TREDP and EOF will be permernantly over!
Three cheers for the advent of holidays!
ow... shoot. my eyes hurt... *changes to working specs*
yup. CRM is so right. How do humans respond to a change?
the answer is : 1) Denial 2) Anger 3) Bargain 4) Resign
I see it applied throughout my life, now especially
1) Denial :
I can't believe that my results are slipping! NO!! This is not what I expected when I came to poly! I worked so hard! This must be a one time thing...
next semester, even worser results
2) Anger :
WHAT THE HELL? I WORKED SO HARD!!! $&#!_*#&_ HOW DARE THEY GIVE ME SUCH LOW MARKS!!! THIS IS HUMILIATING!! #$$&!*_$
after some thoughtful consideration
3) Bargaining :
Maybe I should work even more harder! For now, I shall go into depression and study like mad. I shall not interect, I shall not do anything that will "affect" my studies.
next semester, even worser results
4) Resignation : (current stage)
Ah well, life is all not fair. I can't blame myself for not trying hard enough. I did try my best, and to my best will I give it. God's will is the best will I could hope for.
haha... you see the chain of events?
5 more days to VALENTINE's DAY!!
I can't wait I can't wait I can't wait!!!
I know I'll definately get to meet him on that day at least!
haha... wonder what I should get....
lol.
Anywayz, I've made up my mind. Tomorrow I shall change to Shuichi style! YES! haha... I bet my class will make some comments. Hmm... haha....
but we'll see ya?
most people are already used to seeing me wear my double shirts =P
*hugz*
*love me for the reason... let the reason be love... *
haha... Few things has ever gotten me so hyper before...
If only Gravitation stuffs were sold in Singapore, I think my bed, wardrobe, bag.. everything will be full of Gravi stuffs!
I'm even starting to act Japanese...
Konnichiwa!
Lol.. I think this is hilarious...
anywayz, GOOD LUCK TO ALL YOU PEEPZ GETTING O LEVEL RESULTS!!!!
*SCREAMS*
hee... i know how stress you feel.. I couldn't sleep the whole night before I got my O level results too...
now.... *cracks knuckles*
I'm going to learn how to use CUBase, an advance creation and synthesizing software... wish me luck! My system is finally up and running to use it!
k.
you may be wondering why this post is so stress free.. thats coz CRM IS OVER!!! CRM IS OVER!!!
YAAY!!
and in the span of 6 more days, MPP, TREDP and EOF will be permernantly over!
Three cheers for the advent of holidays!
ow... shoot. my eyes hurt... *changes to working specs*
yup. CRM is so right. How do humans respond to a change?
the answer is : 1) Denial 2) Anger 3) Bargain 4) Resign
I see it applied throughout my life, now especially
1) Denial :
I can't believe that my results are slipping! NO!! This is not what I expected when I came to poly! I worked so hard! This must be a one time thing...
next semester, even worser results
2) Anger :
WHAT THE HELL? I WORKED SO HARD!!! $&#!_*#&_ HOW DARE THEY GIVE ME SUCH LOW MARKS!!! THIS IS HUMILIATING!! #$$&!*_$
after some thoughtful consideration
3) Bargaining :
Maybe I should work even more harder! For now, I shall go into depression and study like mad. I shall not interect, I shall not do anything that will "affect" my studies.
next semester, even worser results
4) Resignation : (current stage)
Ah well, life is all not fair. I can't blame myself for not trying hard enough. I did try my best, and to my best will I give it. God's will is the best will I could hope for.
haha... you see the chain of events?
5 more days to VALENTINE's DAY!!
I can't wait I can't wait I can't wait!!!
I know I'll definately get to meet him on that day at least!
haha... wonder what I should get....
lol.
Anywayz, I've made up my mind. Tomorrow I shall change to Shuichi style! YES! haha... I bet my class will make some comments. Hmm... haha....
but we'll see ya?
most people are already used to seeing me wear my double shirts =P
*hugz*
*love me for the reason... let the reason be love... *
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Finally, a breathing space, still its limited...
You know when I don't blog for a long time, I'm intensely busy. Even busier then those days that I blog complains on my blog...
I needed this breathing space anywayz...
sigh... I miss Dominic...
alot...
Haha... He actually hugged me 3 times on monday!!
I was speechless...
I needed that hug though... My brain has been ransacked and reformatted these few fortnights... as though something dormant has finally awoken in me...
I've spent hours staring into blank space wondering and asking questions... that nobody could answer except myself...
... its been too long... far too long...
from the time I created this blog, until now..... I believe, the ice age is over...
am I dillusional? I guess I am... but I love him.
More then anything on this earth....
His hair.. his smile.. his eyes... his face.... his hug...
... i don't know why i'm crying...
You know when I don't blog for a long time, I'm intensely busy. Even busier then those days that I blog complains on my blog...
I needed this breathing space anywayz...
sigh... I miss Dominic...
alot...
Haha... He actually hugged me 3 times on monday!!
I was speechless...
I needed that hug though... My brain has been ransacked and reformatted these few fortnights... as though something dormant has finally awoken in me...
I've spent hours staring into blank space wondering and asking questions... that nobody could answer except myself...
... its been too long... far too long...
from the time I created this blog, until now..... I believe, the ice age is over...
am I dillusional? I guess I am... but I love him.
More then anything on this earth....
His hair.. his smile.. his eyes... his face.... his hug...
... i don't know why i'm crying...
Sunday, February 05, 2006
= GRAVITATION =
Yes people. I'm finally online...
I'VE WATCHED FINISHED GRAVITATION!!!! AHHH!!!! ITS SOO COOL!!!
*sigh* sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh....
sometimes... you just wish that you were in a world of your own. When nothing else is there but your dreams to persue, and love to hold you...
Synopsis :
------
Gravitation is about a semi-techno/rock band that is crazy about being in that industry. Incidentally, Shindo Shuichi, the lead vocalist of the band was trying to think up about new lyrics for the song that he was going to sing on "Bad Luck"'s (his band) first ever public performance while walking in the park and his piece of paper flew away just to land in the hands of a very cold looking guy who just gave negetive comments.
And that when it all begun. Shuichi, like the hot-headed emo guy that he is had to find Yuki (the cold guy) to clarify everything... Shuichi, just expecting an apology, encountered the strange person and realized after awhile that he actually has feelings for him. Meanwhile, Yuki had personal problems of his own, drawing from his past that has rendered him into such an emotionless state...
Yuki, the succesful author who wrote several famous love novels, was himself a guy that could not love. But he ended up caring for the "imbecile" (Shuichi) who kept pestering him because of a kiss.
He never expected to be able to love again.
And love brought back a past that he never wanted to surface again... While Yuki tries to overcome this insanity within himself, Shuichi and his band, Bad Luck was rising to stardom owing to alot of unexpected factors...
When Yuki returns to confront his past, he's met with a decision to dwell in it or face the future...
He realized that he loves Shuichi, despite his attention deficit emo behaviour, and that he has finally found a person who loves him not because of his looks, but truly, because of the person in him. Himself....
------
This anime is one of the rare few that made me shed alot of tears. Duh. Thanks to the amount of times that Yuki kept letting Shuichi down.
Nonetheless, to appreciate the show, you'll have to :
1) Be an aspiring musician
2) Understand what the characters go through
3) Laugh
Yup, laughter is one of the facets that made the show so interesting... I really hand it over to the production team of the show.
Overall satisfaction of this show :
4.6 out of 5 stars.
For all the aspiring techno/rock band musicians and guys like me, (though i doubt there are many), this show is for you!!! [most definately]
incidentally, this broke the score of A.I. by Steven Spielberg, which I gave 4.5 out of 5 stars.
And finally, last but not least, I would like to sincerely SINCERELY thank Xiao Wei mei mei for helping me get a copy of GRAVITATION.
Since its banned in Singapore, its kinda cool that she has it, considering that I have been searching for it for approximately 4 years...
G-R-A-V-I-T-A-T-I-O-N
I will put their final hit song on my blog once I've gotten hold of the Official Sound Track. Its super cool, I think I've like memorized how to sing the entire song in Japanese already... yes in Japanese.
oh yah, Gravitation is a series anime, 13 episodes in all, with super cool soundtracks.
haha. I seem to be marketing this anime series, but i justify this act with the show's worth.
=)
P.S
Note to Readers : Scroll down to see Yuki and Shuichi, the 2 main characters in the story!
toki o koetai... (i'll transcend time)
you beside me...
i love you
I'VE WATCHED FINISHED GRAVITATION!!!! AHHH!!!! ITS SOO COOL!!!
*sigh* sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh....
sometimes... you just wish that you were in a world of your own. When nothing else is there but your dreams to persue, and love to hold you...
Synopsis :
------
Gravitation is about a semi-techno/rock band that is crazy about being in that industry. Incidentally, Shindo Shuichi, the lead vocalist of the band was trying to think up about new lyrics for the song that he was going to sing on "Bad Luck"'s (his band) first ever public performance while walking in the park and his piece of paper flew away just to land in the hands of a very cold looking guy who just gave negetive comments.
And that when it all begun. Shuichi, like the hot-headed emo guy that he is had to find Yuki (the cold guy) to clarify everything... Shuichi, just expecting an apology, encountered the strange person and realized after awhile that he actually has feelings for him. Meanwhile, Yuki had personal problems of his own, drawing from his past that has rendered him into such an emotionless state...
Yuki, the succesful author who wrote several famous love novels, was himself a guy that could not love. But he ended up caring for the "imbecile" (Shuichi) who kept pestering him because of a kiss.
He never expected to be able to love again.
And love brought back a past that he never wanted to surface again... While Yuki tries to overcome this insanity within himself, Shuichi and his band, Bad Luck was rising to stardom owing to alot of unexpected factors...
When Yuki returns to confront his past, he's met with a decision to dwell in it or face the future...
He realized that he loves Shuichi, despite his attention deficit emo behaviour, and that he has finally found a person who loves him not because of his looks, but truly, because of the person in him. Himself....
------
This anime is one of the rare few that made me shed alot of tears. Duh. Thanks to the amount of times that Yuki kept letting Shuichi down.
Nonetheless, to appreciate the show, you'll have to :
1) Be an aspiring musician
2) Understand what the characters go through
3) Laugh
Yup, laughter is one of the facets that made the show so interesting... I really hand it over to the production team of the show.
Overall satisfaction of this show :
4.6 out of 5 stars.
For all the aspiring techno/rock band musicians and guys like me, (though i doubt there are many), this show is for you!!! [most definately]
incidentally, this broke the score of A.I. by Steven Spielberg, which I gave 4.5 out of 5 stars.
And finally, last but not least, I would like to sincerely SINCERELY thank Xiao Wei mei mei for helping me get a copy of GRAVITATION.
Since its banned in Singapore, its kinda cool that she has it, considering that I have been searching for it for approximately 4 years...
G-R-A-V-I-T-A-T-I-O-N
I will put their final hit song on my blog once I've gotten hold of the Official Sound Track. Its super cool, I think I've like memorized how to sing the entire song in Japanese already... yes in Japanese.
oh yah, Gravitation is a series anime, 13 episodes in all, with super cool soundtracks.
haha. I seem to be marketing this anime series, but i justify this act with the show's worth.
=)
P.S
Note to Readers : Scroll down to see Yuki and Shuichi, the 2 main characters in the story!
toki o koetai... (i'll transcend time)
you beside me...
i love you
Friday, February 03, 2006
breaking the silence.
I've always had a habit of recording my life...
an unfinished story of struggle and weakness...
and through the course of my life, I realized that the two most greatest factors that changed my life are :
1) God
2) Friends
it always coincides with a mere "coincidence" that love plays a part in all these...
*cough*
now I'm suffering from a bout of cough. this is quite terrible... getting sick during the examination periods is one of the worst omens that could possibly happen.
anywayz, this blog entry has been one of the longest gap in between an entry i took.
finance, customer relations, public relations....
this semester is one of the most boring one yet.
agree with me on this please.
congrats to Timo, Sarah, Jia Hui, Sabby, May and... erm... i'm not sure who else, Becky and Mei Hui?
You all rock xD
Now that you all are forever etched in the history of the polytechnic, remember to remember me ok?
I think there is no other single class in the whole Singapore Polytechnic that has achieved as much as what the combined effort of our class has achieved =)
oh shoot... Forgot to tune in to see my classmates on Channel News Asia... shoot... will do so tomorrow...
oh yah.. thanks to my antisocializing streak of reading books, I think I've pissed alot of people off...
Sometimes I get so immersed into books that reality seems to warp and dissolve around me according to the whims and fancies of the author...
sorry ya.
hahaz... a few people noticed, just a few people noticed, fortunately or unfortunately that I've been on an upper body training spree... was thinking that i was looking too much like nothing I envisioned becoming, so there. I think my quadraceps and biceps has increased a bit. and I think i can see more definition in my chest.
and i think i shouldn be talking about this on my blog.
ok
*cough*
hmm.... Tomorrow is Jason's birthday! so happy birthday Jason =)
May you always be as innocent and carefree like a little sheep.
might not be able to attend your party as I've to attend a funeral service... sigh
*cough*
I've decided I need a few things desperately
1) A new bagpack
My old bag is just too old... Though I'm proud of it (it carried me through me sec school years you know... or more like i carried it)
2) A motorbike
Ok, Ms Peter is going to kill me if she sees this, but I really do want to have my own bike... It's so much more convenient then having to save up so much for a car. and it cooler too... I can bring my boyfriend around
3) A new computer
This computer is getting terribly slow, and what I mean slow is like its becoming like a high-speed laptop. Moreover, my data storage is runnin out... I cant belive I've crossed 130 GB of space on my computer
4) A new internet system.
THIS IS A MUST. must must must must must mussstttt!! which kinda ISP (internet service provider) provides a CABLE subscriber with less then 1kb of bandwidth? This is utterly rediculous... even during the peak hours, it should be at least 56k!! I think I'm not going to use Starhub anymore. HEARD ME STARHUB!! I'M NOT GOING TO SUBSCRIBE TO YOU TILL YOU SOLVE THIS PROBLEM!
5) A new pair of spectacles (or contact lenses for that matter)
I think I'm going blind... My the amount of scratches and cracks that my current frameless specs has will make the grand canyon feel proud of itself anyday. I hope I can get a set of those astigmatism correction contact lenses (preferably changing my eye colour to light brown or gray).
ok. these wishes most likely would not be solved anytime soon, so I'll just brood about it.
*hugglez*
i miss you more and more each day,
time flies mercilessly fast when i'm with you
time crawls mercilessly slow when i'm without you
i'll write a song one day,
on how much i love ya... promise =)
an unfinished story of struggle and weakness...
and through the course of my life, I realized that the two most greatest factors that changed my life are :
1) God
2) Friends
it always coincides with a mere "coincidence" that love plays a part in all these...
*cough*
now I'm suffering from a bout of cough. this is quite terrible... getting sick during the examination periods is one of the worst omens that could possibly happen.
anywayz, this blog entry has been one of the longest gap in between an entry i took.
finance, customer relations, public relations....
this semester is one of the most boring one yet.
agree with me on this please.
congrats to Timo, Sarah, Jia Hui, Sabby, May and... erm... i'm not sure who else, Becky and Mei Hui?
You all rock xD
Now that you all are forever etched in the history of the polytechnic, remember to remember me ok?
I think there is no other single class in the whole Singapore Polytechnic that has achieved as much as what the combined effort of our class has achieved =)
oh shoot... Forgot to tune in to see my classmates on Channel News Asia... shoot... will do so tomorrow...
oh yah.. thanks to my antisocializing streak of reading books, I think I've pissed alot of people off...
Sometimes I get so immersed into books that reality seems to warp and dissolve around me according to the whims and fancies of the author...
sorry ya.
hahaz... a few people noticed, just a few people noticed, fortunately or unfortunately that I've been on an upper body training spree... was thinking that i was looking too much like nothing I envisioned becoming, so there. I think my quadraceps and biceps has increased a bit. and I think i can see more definition in my chest.
and i think i shouldn be talking about this on my blog.
ok
*cough*
hmm.... Tomorrow is Jason's birthday! so happy birthday Jason =)
May you always be as innocent and carefree like a little sheep.
might not be able to attend your party as I've to attend a funeral service... sigh
*cough*
I've decided I need a few things desperately
1) A new bagpack
My old bag is just too old... Though I'm proud of it (it carried me through me sec school years you know... or more like i carried it)
2) A motorbike
Ok, Ms Peter is going to kill me if she sees this, but I really do want to have my own bike... It's so much more convenient then having to save up so much for a car. and it cooler too... I can bring my boyfriend around
3) A new computer
This computer is getting terribly slow, and what I mean slow is like its becoming like a high-speed laptop. Moreover, my data storage is runnin out... I cant belive I've crossed 130 GB of space on my computer
4) A new internet system.
THIS IS A MUST. must must must must must mussstttt!! which kinda ISP (internet service provider) provides a CABLE subscriber with less then 1kb of bandwidth? This is utterly rediculous... even during the peak hours, it should be at least 56k!! I think I'm not going to use Starhub anymore. HEARD ME STARHUB!! I'M NOT GOING TO SUBSCRIBE TO YOU TILL YOU SOLVE THIS PROBLEM!
5) A new pair of spectacles (or contact lenses for that matter)
I think I'm going blind... My the amount of scratches and cracks that my current frameless specs has will make the grand canyon feel proud of itself anyday. I hope I can get a set of those astigmatism correction contact lenses (preferably changing my eye colour to light brown or gray).
ok. these wishes most likely would not be solved anytime soon, so I'll just brood about it.
*hugglez*
i miss you more and more each day,
time flies mercilessly fast when i'm with you
time crawls mercilessly slow when i'm without you
i'll write a song one day,
on how much i love ya... promise =)
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